well then...

i am now officially a "Floridian"...Ive been putting it off for almost 2 years to get a Florida state ID..finally did yesterday...only reason being i have to in order to prove I'm a Florida resident for the devil's advocates ( department of children and families AKA welfare )...i was supposed to take breanna back to the doctor today to get her shots but due to laziness and exhaustion from the beginning of this week already i canceled...i have alot to do today as it is without having to hurry to make sure everything is done before mark has to be at work at 4 this afternoon. ill reschedule tomorrow. anyhow today i have to drop all my life info at welfare..something i hate doing..i hate living off the state..mark and i never had to before and its still taking me some time to get used to..before we always had money to take care of our bills, food to eat and insurance from his work to pay for medical bills... hopefully i can find a job and him a better job so we don't have to do this for long....on to other news..breanna is talking ALOT now..she is now saying full sentences and larger words...I'm so proud of her i could burst...i find it particularly cute when she says she likes something... example would be "mommy i like movie" or " momma i like gummies" ...it makes my heart melt and pride just wants to explode from my chest...right now I'm trying to teach her the basics of colors numbers and letters...once she gets the hang of those i want to start teaching her how to read....she loves being read to but doesn't seem interested in her "children's" books...so i have taken the liberty of reading her the Narnia and harry potter books at night before bed...even though there are not any pictures she still seems to like them more than her books...i can see it now..my child is going to be class A nerd like her daddy and mommy :)... yesterday i took her outside in the backyard...she has been doing this for awhile but it still amazes me what its like for children to explore and see things through their eyes... she makes me feel like a child myself and for that i am grateful..it is the time a day when all stress seems to melt away ( that is until we go back inside and all reality comes rushing back in like a wave) "sigh" i want another baby for breanna to have a playmate..but do to financial disability at the moment it would be a horrible idea...breanna is just going to have to make due with phoenix at the moment :)...speaking of kitty's "sebastian" seems to have either found a home or someone called a shelter and took him away..i have not seen him since the day we gave him a name..im actually kind of sad about it...oh well...maybe he just likes to be called "cat" and we have offended him in ome way...lol
I must say even with all the stress going on at the moment about money and the stupid shit i have had to do to make sure my kid is taken care of..things at home have been alright..mark and i seem to appreciate each other more since i went away for a month to see my family up north. we have civil conversations, sex is great and we actually smile at each other again..its a feeling i have missed for a long time...im sure the newness will wear off eventually as it does when you have been with someone for a long time, but at the moment i am enjoying it and hopefully mark is too...i really do love him and i know he loves breanna and me..just do to all the ignorant bullshit before it was just hard....seems like things will be better :)
anyhow..i think this concludes my post for now..until next time