bitch and moan....

OK the past few days have been a struggle to keep my sanity...to start off with our car broke down..mark is at his brothers house trying to fix it...lets hope it does get fixed..without a car mark has no job..with no job means no money...no money means us living in garbage bins which to me is NOT attractive. we struggle as it is with money and are WAYYY behind on bills right now without it making it worse..the economy sucks right now and haven't been able to find a job to help out...anyhoo on with it...i checked the mail today..got more bills that i cant pay and also a notice from the department of children and families saying we are up for review and they needs all this proof about our income in order to receive medical care for breanna and for food stamps..i hate having to live off the state and the loops they make you jump through here in the state of Florida is fucking retarded.so now i have to get all of our income together, bills, i also have to renew my ID, ect...all by the 30Th..OK NOT cool..they could have at least gave me 2 or 3 weeks instead of what 6 days?..yea not happy about it. breanna has been more hyper and whatnot than usual which has been grating my nerves to almost nothing...she had her 2 year doc appointment today..i had to take the bus which always sucks major ass..its always dirty on them and i hate to say most of the people that ride them need to look into their personal hygiene a bit more...i lost a pack of cigarettes..the ride to and from the doctor's office was not enjoyable in the least..other wise once we got there everything turned out well except she thinks she needs glasses..Ive noticed the past few weeks she has been going cross eyed when she is concentrating on something or looking far away at the TV or certain objects..i talked about it today with the doc and she was doing while we were there...he said he is more worried about maybe her eyes are just weak..not necessarily her eye sight is bad..so he referred her to an eye doctor which i have to make an appointment with tomorrow..she also has had a kidney reflux ever since she was 6 months old ( her pee flushes back into her kidneys from her bladder when she goes to urinate instead of just going out directly) so i have to make an appointment with her urologist too just check up on t even though she has had no problems recently..she has yet another appointment next week on the 29Th to get her shots because they were out of them today..yay..soo in conclusion all these appointments need to happen BEFORE the 30Th just in case welfare wants to be assholes about stuff and decide to cut us off. ( there should be no reason why they would but..hey they have before over something stupid..the welfare system here in Florida reeks of bile...they are the most unorganized non caring people i have ever ran into my entire life..i despise them with a passion).i get home today and my house is being invaded by ants...ALOT of them...so to make it clear..I'm very annoyed today and wish i had a double shot of jager and a joint....

i realize this blog is very poorly written and i care not..im pissed off and probably make no sense what so ever