thanksgiving, babies, and pulling hair out.

well...our thanksgiving went pretty well...unfortunately this time a year is when i still wished lived closer to home cause i miss my mom's food..lol...we went to mark's brother's house to eat..the food was..well..ummm...edible??...we had a nice time but hey the point of thanksgiving is to stuff yourself sick with delicious food you don't have normally all year right?...the turkey was dry and everything else they fixed they pretty much fix all year round and tasted like saw dust..ewww....when mark and i got home, we went next door to his uncles house to discuss the event, all of us decided it wasn't exceptable and we should do something about it...therefore the boys volunteered me and Jen to cook the next day....we made turkey, ham, about 12 different sides and 3 different deserts. I can say I'm quite proud of us..it was excellent and wasn't much different from my momma's cooking..I'm so glad i have a bunch of left overs :)
in other news..breanna is doing well...she is now in the stage of asking questions..what ya doing?..what is it?..momma what is that!??...lol..its really cute but I'm sure ill get tired of it soon as most things do when they are repetitive. she helped Jen and i cook..well should say tried but hey it was fun for her to stir the pudding in a bowl while getting half of it on herself. also breanna found out yesterday that she is going to be a big sister ( well we found out too) Ive had the feeling i was pregnant for a couple of weeks now..i took 2 at home pregnancy test and both came up positive...i honestly wasn't wanting a baby right now due to money reasons but I'm not upset about it..i always said i wanted 2 and like my momma always said if i waited until i "felt" stable about money..it'll never happen cause you never feel stable even when you do make decent money....I'm sure we'll do fine..we always make due somehow....after this baby ( hopefully this time a boy..always wanted one girl one boy..but it doesn't really matter at the same time) I'm getting my tubes tied..i want 2 and 2 only..nothing about that would change my mind so I'm going to go ahead and get them tied so no more worries....i have to make myself a doctors appointment monday...yay for wearing paper dresses on cold beds with your legs spread :/
anyways i think this concludes my news for today...have a good one peoples.

happy thanksgiving

well..that's it...happy thanksgiving...hope everyone has a safe well fed holiday..I'm now going to go gain 15 pounds and stuff myself sick :)

let it snow..wait...

it doesn't snow here..i live in florida...with christmas around the corner i quite miss it...anyhoo that being said I'm trying to prepare for christmas...buying gifts for breanna all though i have no money to really do so but somehow Ive been able to get her a few simple gifts on a really really tight budget...also in this tight budget I'm trying to figure out how to make some homemade decorations..seems as though my imagination is lacking these days though..i have a tree and some decorations for it from last year..but i still don't have many...i really want to make the house cheery without having to go out and buy a shit load of stuff...any ideas anyone who may be reading this?..so far Ive come up with making beaded candy canes and wreaths...Ive looked up online for ideas and found alot.but it requires stuff i would still have to go out and buy the stuff to make it which unfortunately usually is expensive. i do however have a paper plate idea from the good ole grade school years...making snow men and reindeer with them and basically drawing or gluing on construction paper faces..this idea I'm going to do for breanna something she would enjoy helping me with..."sigh" i hate the holidays. its nothing but a big hassle over something i don't even believe in so why do i even bother?..well because i have a child and i want her to have a nice christmas. ( yes I'm thinking yet writing to myself...can we say odd?) i hope all comes along ok....still hoping to find a job...the donut pirates have yet to call me.i guess I'm going to go there tomorrow and see about my application..hopefully they have pity on me...

o what a dull life it is....

well..nothing much has been going on these days...we all seem to have colds except Breanna ( knock on wood..the kid has never been sick) so needless to say my fat ass has been doing nothing except laying about complaining while Breanna is screaming in my ear to go out and play...i was feeling a bit better yesterday so i finally did take her outside...out there we happened to see our neighbor and his little girl Rose. Rose is the same age as Breanna and they get along like most toddlers do..they point and OOHHH AHHHH over each other...lol...it was quite cute.
I kinda got scared out of my pants today...Breanna had her first venture around the house alone because I was so exhausted this morning i didn't hear her when she got up.. We have a 1 bedroom apartment that is the size of a 2...the bedroom alone could be 2 bedrooms so that's what we did...one side is Breezy's the other side ours. Usually i close the door at night that way she cant get out in case she would wake up before me..well i thought i closed it last night..obviously i didn't or my worst fear is coming true..breanna is learning to open doors..don't know which yet but I'm sure to find out...anyways i woke up to her playing with her toys in the living room...I'm so glad i have a good kid..the bathroom door was open and she could have gotten into all kinds of illegal ( well to her) goodies in there..like oh chemicals or soaps..you name it...not to mention my living room was a mess with stuff just strewn about...yea i woke up and freaked when i didn't see her anywhere and heard her out there...i guess from now on I'm going to have to make sure he bathroom door is closed and stuff is put away before bed at night just in case she is able to open doors...sigh...makes me sad cause she is getting so big on me really.
well this about covers it for now..like the title states...its been a dull life.

Just a survey I found...yes I'm quite bored...seemed like fun

***********FOODOLOGY***************
What is your salad dressing of choice?? ranch
What is your favorite sit-down restaurant? Applebee's or Olive Garden
What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Roasted garlic triscuts with marinara sauce and italian blend cheese on top..yummy
What are your pizza toppings of choice? im simple..pepperoni
What do you like to put on your toast? depends on my mood..usually butter and jelly

***********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many televisions are in your house? 1..whats the point in having more?
How many radios are in your house? 1..a clock radio..lol
How many computers are in your house? 1
How many DVD players are in your house? 1..and its broke..damn it

***************BIOLOGY******************
Are you right-handed or left-handed? righty
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? quite a few things actually...im accident prone
What is the last heavy item you lifted? I can lift alot..so I dont know..recently though.. HUGE rolls of carpeting when my brother in law was redoing his home
Have you ever been knocked unconscious? yes many times..once again im accident prone

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? yea sure..wouldnt change anything for me
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? my name is awesome thank you
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? and suffer the consequences?..no thanks

************DUMBOLOGY******************

How many pairs of flip flops do you own? 4
Last time you had a run-in with the COPS? uhhh cant rememeber..not recently though
Last person you talked to? mark
Last person you hugged breanna

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season? fall
Holiday? halloween
Day of the week? any day i get to sleep in
Month? october

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing someone? yes..tons of people
Mood? eh..its ok
What are you listening to? nothing right now..well besides the tv
Watching? un well considering my focus is on this jackass survey then i wouldnt be watching anything except what im doing eh?
Worrying about?..you name it i'm probably stressing over it

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning? the kitchen..lol..whoo hoo i know its exciting
What's the last movie you saw? shrek 3..lol..breanna is watching it now
Do you smile often? sometimes
Sleeping Alone Tonight? im never alone
Do you always answer your phone? hell no
If you could change your eye color what would it be? i wouldnt change..cause im that awesome
What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? ewww fucking gross
Do you own a digital camera? yes
Have you ever had a pet fish? no..always had furry pets
Favorite Christmas song? ehh...if i had to pick one that you can SAY i like..then i guess o holy night...otherwise most christmas songs suck donkey balls
What's on your wish list for your birthday? to be working by then
Can you do push ups? yes
Can you do a chin up? haha..have no idea..its been years since ive tried..lol
Does the future make you more nervous or excited? these days more nervous than anything
Ever been in a car wreck? 9 of them..i told you already im accident prone..obviously yu have a frontal lobe issue.
Do you have an accent?..ewww yes i do
What is the last song to make you cry? alot of songs make me teary...i know im weak..shut up
Plans tonight?..nookie!!!..hahaha
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? uhhhh does NOW count?
Name 3 things you bought yesterday. i didn't buy shit yesterday
Have you ever been given roses? yes
Current worry? christmas for breanna
Current hate right now? refer to the rock bottom question..i hate everything right now :)
Met someone who changed your life? many people have changed my life
How did you bring in the New Year? sat at home with my family and watched the ball drop
What song represents you? you can dance if you want to...lol..j/k..i have no idea
Name three people who might complete this?..uhhhh dont know dont give a fuck
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? i think everyone would...would i change anything?..no
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? obviously yes
Do you have any tattoo/piercing? used to have a bunch of piercings..took them out except my ears
Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now? most likely
Does anyone love you? i hope so..lol
Would you be a pirate? hell yea..its a pirates life for me yo ho
What songs do you sing in the shower? what ever comes along in me noggin
Ever had someone sing to you? yes..it was awkward
When did you last cry?I cant remember
Do you like to cuddle? no not really
Have you held hands with anyone today? not yet
Who was the last person you took a picture of? breanna :)
What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school? haha metal..seriously..i have brothers..lol
Do you believe in staying close with your ex's/prospects? no..why worry about stupid shit
Are most of the friends in your life new or old? both
Do you like pulpy orange juice? ewwwwww
What is something your friends make fun of you for? i get made fun of for loads of shit..i think mainly my sailor mouth and my frequent brain farts.
Have you ever ridden an elephant? yes when i was 10 at the zoo
Do you like to play Scrabble? yes
What are you saving your money up for right now? Christmas presents, bills, you name it at the moment
When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? no idea
What song do you want played at your funeral? no idea..wouldn't want to think about it right now anyways thank you
What were you doing 12 AM last night? taking a shower
What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? man fuck shit cunt ass morning grrrr..o hi breanna!!!...lol


ok yea this was lame but hey i was bored and i caught my attention..lol

cross you fingers....

i hopefully..maybe...not sure yet have a job...dunkin donuts.yea no big deal and its not exactly the job I'm looking for but hey i cant complain right now..i just need anything considering my bills are going to put me in my grave along with the fact Christmas is around the corner and so far Ive been only able to get breanna 2 really cheap gifts....i filled out an application the other day..i called about it yesterday evening and talked to the hiring manager...she knew who i was and told me she is starting interviews next week...so yea keep your fingers crossed that i may get an interview in the least :)

photo time!

Well...I'm quite bored but I'm not sure what to blog about just yet...so in the meantime until my brain fart is gone please enjoy some pictures..hey better than elevator music right?


As you can see Breanna is dancing with daddy while her best friends watch this comical scene.

A day at the beach...I think she consume more sand than actually getting it in the bucket.

After playing with the sand, although it was not planned as so, she decided to go into the water..fun fun.



Daddy just got done assembling one of Breanna birthday gifts...a sit in spin. He was quite proud..lol ( and yes a dog is sniffing her ass)


Cheese!!


One of the very few pics of me and her. I'm always the one behind the camera...in fact I still am..lol



Breanna happens the think she is a "pencess" When she is a "pencess" she puts on the crown I made her for Halloweena dn her plastic Cinderella shoes. Quite cute really.


Phoenix. Yes he has a shirt on. I found one of Breanna's old shirts that happened to be a boys new born jeresey..i thought it would be funny to see it on him.


Breanna and Phoenix.


Super Baby to the rescue!! Defender of teddy bears and tigger. Enemy of boogers, clothing, and poop.

Things to give you heart burn...

Well since my last post nothing much has happened but it hasn't been exactly uneventful either. The past few days Mark's uncle ( who lives next door to us ) got his electric turned off. We felt bad for him and his girlfriend so we let them take an extension cord from our house to theirs so they could at least have tv and one light. I guess the weather is in their favor too considering its actually been quite cold here in Florida therefore they didn't have to swelter in a hot ass apartment ( jeez i know i wouldn't want to..i hate being hot..man i live in the WRONG place). Unfortunately I'm guessing that we may have to do the same and leach off them next week cause i just got a shut off notice in the mail a couple of days ago. The demons of satan known as the eclectic company want 200bucks or goodbye lights. Around here they don't take partial payments. It either pay it all or fuck you..Bastards. I actually would not care to not have lights BUT i have to have a fridge for that stubborn necessary item to live known as food. It just seemed like everyday i checked the mail this past week i was receiving something to give me massive indigestion. The next day after receiving the shut off notice, I happened to get a lovely statement from my cable company for 600 bucks. UMMMM HELLO..my shit has been off since early October...WHY are you charging me fr another month?...bitches. They charged me for this month into next month as if it was still on. I must give them a call and tell them to shove the extra 230 bucks up their ass or i'm not going to pay ANY of it like i planned to. On a good note when it comes to the mail service, i did happen to receive a letter in my favor saying i was approved for medicaid and food stamps for my family. YAY..one less thing off my chest.

Breanna is doing well...she is talking in full sentences, figuring out how to do most things on her own, helps me clean and i couldn't be a more proud mommy over an already wise daughter...don't let her intelligence fool you though..she has an evil side to her, she came up behind me and bit me on the bottom ( i thought at first she was either 1 being sweet and giving me a hug from behind or 2 she notices that dogs sniff asses so she decided to try it too) talk about being quite surprised, weirded out and pissed. Just a few hours ago from the bathroom i hear the cat give a god awful shriek ( good thing he is an awesome lovely kitty otherwise i fear breanna would have been torn to pieces) I come into the room and breanna is trying to swing phoenix from his tail, all the while finding it humorous and laughing hysterically. On a lighter note her sweet side shows just as much as the evil one, after i told her no that she is hurting the cat she picked him up sat him in her lap, said AWWWW i sorry and kissed him. Sometimes she is too damn cute really and she makes me smile along with wanting scream everyday :) I love her to pieces.

In other news, I have officially stopped all contact with my dad's side of the family ( well besides my dad and 1 cousin Brian) growing up because they didn't like my mother, they treated us kids like we had diseases and were the scum between their toes. Everyone of them including my grandmother. They are sad pathetic people and i wish to not have anything to do with them any longer. Not that i had much to do with them anyway. In more recent days, you know sometimes people change when they get older, a year ago a few of my cousins got in contact with me through the ever popular myspace therefore we corresponded for a few weeks. After those few weeks though none of them with the exception of my cousin Brian talked to me again. I would be kind and leave them a comment here and there telling them i hope all is well so on so forth, but they never would write back. After awhile i stopped sending them anything and lost touch again. Well the other day one of my cousins Nicole messaged me on yahoo messenger asking me if i could send her money. no hi how are you no how is beanna nothing. just can you send money. it upset me little but i kept my cool told her man i need money myself. she acted a little pissy about it giving me a sob story that she is about ready to pop with her second child, her baby's daddy isn't helping her so on so forth and the reason she needed it is because of bills ( go figure) i got the feeling however it was for something else so even if i did have it i wouldn't have sent it to her anyways. well after telling her i couldn't she all of a sudden "had to leave" so she couldn't talk any longer. Not that i wanted to talk to her anyways, but the fact that that's the ONLY reason she messaged me was to ask for money, now I'm furious. They haven't changed and they never will. I told her not to talk to me again and to delete me from any list with me on it cause i will not be used as a doormat or as someone she feels that's the only time she has to talk to me is if she needs or wants something. the fucking gall that some people have is beyond me and it sickens me more that this is my so called family. Once again another case of unwanted indigestion.

Still in the process of looking for a job, therefore the burning in my stomach and chest will not retreat from the battle and it happens to be winning..ugggg.

anyways i guess this concludes my bitch and moan for now...until next folks.

Pedophiles...ewwwwww

My friend Mary and I were talking over yahoo last night and we got into the conversation of sexual offenders in our area and how we go about finding them that way we know were they are at and basically avoid the mofo's (or kill them if we ever found them even THINKING about LOOKING at our girls) So thus I decided to search the net to find out if there was a site that posted them in my area. There happened to be one that didn't want any money for it that the actual police department post and quite frankly I was appalled by how many offenders that were in a 2 mile radius from were I live. There were 12 total within that area and to me being a mother of a beautiful little girl just disgust me. I expected to maybe have 2 or 3 tops but 12? In a 5 mile radius there was 98...jeez man there are alot of freaks out there. In my city alone there were over 500 that were registered. It just makes me think about how many have NOT been caught or registered yet. It blows my mind and makes me sick to my stomach. Oh and Mary by the way I found a site for WV. Here it is :) http://www.wvstatepolice.com/sexoff/websearchform.cfm

I swear to god if I run into any of these people on the street...I will give them a straight kick in the balls and when they ask why I'll tell them because they are a sick fucker that needs to be castrated then I'll kick them again. Fuckers.

hmmmmm intersting

Usually i don't buy into bullshit horoscopes...i usually check them out just for shits and giggles to laugh t myself about the petty things they say...today however this one got me thinking cause it hits the nail right on the head with what has been going on in my life recently...check it out.

Overview
Sometimes, your dreams are just silly and weird plays that your subconscious performs at night -- not visions of what your future holds. So if disturbing images have been keeping you tossing and turning lately, don't worry too much about it. This is just a phase and will be over soon. Turn your attention away from your dreams, because you can't control them. Instead, start exerting more power over your waking hours. Then you'll start to see things change.

You need to slow down a lot and rethink any new plans or schemes that have come your way lately -- there may be hidden flaws that only you are likely to spot. Go over each one with great care!


hmmmm...interesting.