I find myself waking only to find myself deep in an abyss glutted with my own despondency. I begin choking on air full of lies of others. I continue to lay there in the blissful torture of my own mind often wondering how it is I come to be in such a woe. I want. I need. I feel. I breathe. I am.
Pathetic? Worthless? Ugly? Unwanted? Unneeded? Loved?
Tossing and tortured with the fuel of another's words. Lies. All lies. Words of kindness. Wisdom. Hope. Beauty. Need. Friendship. Lies, all lies. If not lies, then empty promises and misinterpreted feeling.
How can one be as obtuse as myself. For one that can see through others transparent reeking shit, I still am blind. I have hope in people that show minimal amounts of affection and grow attached....then it becomes infectious. Its never mutual. It never was. I fall into fragments. Portions of myself become adrift. I capitulate to the depression without wanting to come back up for polluted air.
Pathetic. Worthless. Ugly Unwanted. Unneeded.
Unloved.
About Me
- minerva1822
- I have a beautiful daughter named Breanna and a handsome son Lucian. They are my world and I love them with everything that is in me. I am a dreamer. I believe anything is possible if you only try and keep those dreams close at heart if it is something you really want in life. I love any type of art. Art is a way into the soul and has a way of expressing emotions we didn't know we had. Music is a big part of my life. I have done theater, sing, play piano since i was a kid, also a way I like to express myself. I dance when no one is looking. I am attracted to intelligence, there for dislike ignorance with a passion. I am very laid back and get along with pretty much anyone as long as they are good people. I like to be weird and unique. Society sickens me. At time I can be very negative although I really don't intend to. I am intrigued by the cycle of life. Also am fascinated by the human mind and how it works.
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