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First of all...Over the counter Dentek temporary filling is my new god. I bought some last night and almost instantly after applying it to the gaping hole in my tooth pain started to cease. I am totally buying out the whole supply next time I make a trip to wally world. All this relief for the fabulous price of 3 bucks. Yes people 3 bucks. I strongly urge if you have a toothache and the cause is a cavity, hole, loose crown etc, to buy this stuff. *does happy dance*

In other news I am for once done with Easter holiday shopping. the past 2 years Mark and I have a bad habit of waiting till the day before Easter and all the good crap is gone. I decided while at walmart I would go ahead and get it over with. Glad I did. Not only did I have a great selection to choose from but it wasn't a mad house yet. Breanna now has some presents to look forward to here soon.

The original reason I went to Walmart is to buy hair clippers. I totally shaved Phoenix. ( pics to come) I have reasons. One He is very long haired and had alot of matted fur on the underneath side. Two I totally wanted to see what he looks like with a lion cut. Its totally awesome but I'm never going to shave him again. Too much of a pain in the ass. I can say he was awfully patient with me. I have the best cat in the world. I have to say it is a funny sight seeing him almost bald. poor kitty.

My bargain luck kicked in for a brief moment. I found Breanna a toddler bed with the mattress for..guess what?..just guess?...a DOLLAR!..yes my friends a dollar. And its perfect. Its a light brown color and fits perfectly in the space I had for it. I am so happy!!! Hopefully my luck stays with me in the hunt for more baby items I;m going to need in the future.

Well thus concluded my post for now..there is alot more going on in my life that isn't so pleasant but I'll save that for another day...until next time folks.

Bible bangers, tooth aches, other stuff.

Ok soooo...I've been trying to be a great momma these dyas...I've been taking Breanna on walks, to the pool, flying kites with her and trying to be a little bit more patient. So far I'm am quite pleased at myself and I also feel better too getting out of the house more often with my baby girl. The past few months I've been feeling so down and out and sadly Breanna has been paying the price. Well no more I say which is why the effort is being made and it is in fact successful so far. YAY!. Breanna also loves to sit with me online ( mainly cause it annoys me and she knows it) but instead of getting impatient with her, I've been going to youtube and looing up funny videos to watch with her. She loves alvin and the chipmunks so she spends most of the time begging to watch those while singing witch doctor...too cute really it is. I love her to bits :)

In other news, today I was exceptionally rude ( Mary you know me and the word rude..no exceptions eh?...lmao) to a bunch of bible bangers. No offense to them there Christian folk. I was on the comp looking up news when the doorbell rang. Mark had just left to go around the corner to get cigarettes otherwise I would have let him answer it. ( we both have this unspoken agreement that who ever is on the computer when we are both home doesn't have to get up to do anything including answering the phone, doorbell, you get the drift right?) So I got up to answer the door and this man with a huge clipboard was just standing there. I assumed cause of the way he was dressed and the clipboard ( it looked like something someone working for a utility company would use) I asked if I could help him thinking maybe its the carpet people ( supposed to finally get that done soon by the way) or maybe the electric company letting me know something whatever it may be. This man answers me by saying he is going around the neighborhood asking people if they could do a short survey. Without knowing what it was for I just politely answered I would rather not as he could see I have a daughter who was at my heels begging for a snack. Maybe next time hun. He got pissy with me and handed me a flier ( now it hit me what he wanted) saying well if I believed in god and THERE is one MA'AM ( assuming just because of my rejection I automatically am a satanist or what not..haha) then I would gladly take 10 minutes to talk with him and take his survey. Now I'm pissed. I tell the stupid asshole that NO I'm not interested again ( still being polite mind you) and progressed to say goodbye. This dumb mother fucked attempted to push my door open to further ridicule my decision to not talk to him. Now I'm furious. I tell him to back the FUCK up off my door FUCK off and then kindly slam the door in the dipshit's face. I had never been so angry with these people. How dare they be rude? What the hell does that say about their religion, church, etc? I am usually polite to anyone who knocks on my door, and if it happens to be someone wanting to spread their word of "god" then I'll sometimes politely listen, give in my 2 cents and kindly tell them good day. Other times if I just don't feel like listening or debating I'll kindly tell them I'm busy, sorry maybe some other time and once again kindly say goodbye. I hate it when these people. End of story. GRRRRRRRR. I'm still fuming over it. Mark laughed when I told him. He said he saw them down the street and was trying to hurry back to have something to say. ( one of Mark's fave past time is to scare these poor people..according to alot of them we are going straight to hell because of this) I told him what happened and he said he wished he would have seen that. I guess my neighbor saw what happened and told Mark golly good for me..lol. hopefully I was mean enough so these people would spread the word and not go to the crazy woman with the filthy house and little girl on 15th place. One can only hope though.
In other news. I am up writing this blog because I a min sever pain and I need something to take my mind off of it. My tooth is once again bothering me. I need to get it pulled. On top of the worst toothache of my life, I have a bad migraine too. A double whammy as some would call it. My whole head feels like it is a ticking clock about to explode any given minute off my shoulders. Hey maybe I would feel better once it happened. Lets do like the psycho bible bangers and pray that happens. Uggg. Well I guess I'm off to bed now. I'm done saying what I have to say. If I have not posted a comment on your blog and I am one that follows you. I am sorry. As I have stated I have been spending time with my daughter and in the mean time stay sick or in pain..it never ends. ( sorry Mary, I really need to go to your blog and catch up on my reading there...I promise I will) anyways goodnight folks.

Here we go!

Ok I don't really have a good excuse for not blogging. I have been either busy, sick, or just had really nothing of worth to talk about. The past few days have been a little more eventful so I decided to blow the cobwebs off my blog page and add a new post. I have been feeling a little better mentally lately. Breanna and I have been playing games for much of the day while Mark is gone or just being silly. Yesterday she got a new movie in the mail...the ever popular classic Disney's Peter Pan. She loves it and goes around yelling Here we go!..Hence the name of my post. Also yesterday we made a trip to the pool with my neice and friend Jen. Breanna has a new bathing suit that has a life jacket attachment if you want it. breanna loves the water but for safety reasons I perfer a life jacket on her so the bathing suit was a god send. It was funny watching her in the water she kinda looked like a turtle stuck on its back. She would lay back in the water and the life jacket keeping her afloat she would tread water with her arms..it was really a funny sight. She played with some other kids in the baby pool area for a long time which is great to watch. My poor daughter never has anyone o play with and she loves other children. I can't wait to have this baby so she won't be so lonely anymore..lol.
After a day of fun in the sun, we went and got food and icecream at Dairy queen. Hot fudge sunday shakes rock hard ass when your pregnant :) Breanna enjoyed ers as well...for some reason she perfers shakes over an actual cone. Which of course is fine by me cause no mess but I still find it odd. My kid is just really smart and knows its easier for mommy I guess..lol.
Even though we had a great day and it had been so long since I have done anything like this with Breanna, I was still upset most of the day. I thought my cat was gone for good. He is an indoor cat but every once in a while I'll let him go outside because he loves it out there and always stays in front of the house. The night before last he was outside and I wen to bed telling Mark not to forget about Phoenix. Well the next day Phoenix wasn't in the house so I thought Mark just didn't let him in. I opened the door and called for him to come for food. He didn't come. This is weird for my cat. he is like a dog in alot of ways. He is very loyal and he has never NOT come when I call for him. I woke up Mark and asked where the cat was and he said he tried to find him last night to let him in but he was no where to be found. Mark assumed maybe he found a girlfriend or something and would be back in the morning. Now I'm a little worried but I thought if I kept calling him he would be back before I was to leave for the pool..No such luck. When I came back from the pool 5 hours later, I laid Breanna down for a nap while Mark was still home and went looking for him in my neighborhood. I walked up and down the streets calling him afraid I would find him on the side of the road as road kill. No luck. I came home and bawled on Mark's shoulder. I know it sounds pathetic to be so upset over an animal but this cat is my darling. I've never had one like him or looked like him. He is my best and really only friend here in Florida. He loves me dearly and is such a sweet heart. Mark felt bad even though he doesn't like Phoenix that much ( mark is NOT an animal person period..lol) and went out to look for him before work. He had no luck either. Well after being upset about my cat I finally fell asleep with breanna myself since I was exhausted from the already long day I had had. Breanna woke me up 2 hours later asking for something to drink, something she always does right after she wakes up then she asked where Phoenix was. I got upset again cause the damn cat is also Breanna's only real friend and she even realizes he is gone. Ugggg. Finally after I had lost hope in finding him thinking either he was dead or picked up by someone, he came home a little after midnight. I was excited and happy and pissed at the same time. Kinda funny really. I think he got stuck somewhere or in a fight, maybe both. My poor kitty was covered in mud, looked as if he clawed his way out of something and was slightly limping. He was also scared shitless. He is attached to me something crazy but I guess whatever happened to him has made him extra clingy. Ever since he has been home he stays by my side or at my feet. So glad he is home :)
In other news, little things anyways. I finally got my hair cut and it looks good!..I'll post pics sometime later. It has been so long since I have had a GOOD haircut that I forgot what it was like..lol. Also did a little shopping and got Breanna some new sandals, Mark new shoes and myself new flip flops ( I rarely wear tennis shoes living here..shoes for me are cheap..lol) I also fell off the wagon and got a new book. Reason I put it this way is that I promised myself I wouldn't let curiousity get the best of me. Well I did. I got the first book from the Twilight series. I must say it is a great story. Not the best written but still good. I got hooked as soon as I was past page 2 and finished it within 8-9 hours. I'm ashamed...lol. I am not one for love stories at all, I've read only a handful most of which I had heard about and didn't know it was a love story. This one is for sure different and like I said I surprised myself by being hooked into it. Mark said he was going to get me the movie since I liked the book so much I told him not to buy it to just put it in netflix cause books and movies are not the same. I have wasted so much money buying movies that were off books I loved and ended up the movie blew ass. This isn't always the case but it is the majority for me. I did however tell him he could get me the rest of the series :)
My pregnancy is going well. I'm feeling better for the most part. I still have days but at least now I feel well enough to get off my ass and spend time with my family. I'm hoping to start to feel movement soon. I know it varies but I had movement early with Breanna and I'm hoping the same for this baby main reason being I'm a worry wart..lol. I'm showing a little. Clothes are getting tighter..not happy about that already but oh well. Smoking is NOT going good..shame on me I know :( I'm trying though and am making sure I do everythin else right..thats no excuse and I'm not using it as one but I am trying. I'm just weak and things get to me easily therefore I reach for that pack of cancer. GRRRR.
I think that about concludes my post for now. I'm going to go fly a kite I bought for Breanna the other day now :) Should be fun. I haven't flown a kite in years and I hope Breanna enjoys it too :)

Pregnancy update and neighborly ruckus....

Yesterday I had a long day. I didn't get any sleep thanks to a kidney infection therefore having the urge to urinate every 10 minutes. In between relieving my bladder I have an itchy crotch due to yeast infection thanks to the antibiotic I am on for the kidney infection. Lovely right? After getting such a restful night I showered, dressed and was on my way to the doctor at 8am by bus to be there by 10am. It is a 10 minute drive from my apartment but due to the fact I have to take 2 buses to get there it takes me 2 hours each way. YAY.
I get to the doctor and get another ultrasound. They have once again changed my due date. It is now the 18th of September. Seems as though little one doesn't want to make up his.her mind as to when they will come out...lol. My doctor is awesome. I love her. I talked to her about my craziness and she now has me on Zoloft for the time being. After many many questions of taking this medication and the safety of it and research of my own before filling it, I think it is for the best. My doctor also thinks its for the best for the baby since my pregnancy hasnt been exactly cake. She thinks me going without medication can do some serious harm to myself and baby. I just hope it works. I don't want to take anything if I don't have to but the think is is I do have to. I can't stand myself anymore let alone my family. Mark supports me either way which is a relief. He just wants me an the baby to be ok. Most of all I want to feel like a mother again and not some pissy woman watching a kid. I love my daughter more than anything and she deserves better therefore I want to give it to her. Hopefully this is a step to doing that.
As for everything else with my pregnancy, things seems to be going along fine. Baby seems to be doing good. I heard the heartbeat for the first time. It was AWESOME. I really am looking forward to having another baby and for Breanna to have a sibling. Maybe this is what I need who knows..lol.
Speaking of Breanna. She is a great kid. I really couldn't ask for a better one. I was so tired yesterday I kept nodding off. Breanna asked me to watch a movie so I put in Bee movie and she sat beside me on the couch to watch it. She came up to me and went awww mommy it ok you sleepy (seepy..lol) I said yea momma is tired. She continued watching Bee movie and I guess I fell asleep for a little over an hour. When I woke up I freaked out cause well you know falling asleep with a 2 year old on the loose is a big No NO in the mommy area. Breanna was still sitting beside me. She sat there the whole time while I slept. She saw I was awake and got up, gave me a kiss and asked for a snack. She is so smart and loving and I really don't deserve her, but I'm soooo glad she is mine :)
In other news, I have new neighbors. They just moved in yesterday a woman and I guess her husband. I met the woman outside when I just got home. We introduced ourselves and I went inside. She seemed to be really nice. The husband/boyfriend.fuck buddy I didn't talk to. Well last night I was laying down with Breanna in the bedroom to finally sleep for the night when I kept hearing a huge commotion outside. Though I heard breaking glass, stuff being thrown and screaming. Promptly after it stopped, Mark came into the bedroom and told me he called the cops. I asked why cause normally he doesn't care about noise or rowdiness unless its REALLY bad. He said he was outside when all the stuff was going down and it was the new neighbors. I guess the guy was screaming at the woman, throwing stuff out the door, hitting Mark's uncle's car with the stuff, and then ran around out back because the woman locked him out. He tried to break in through the back to get in and broke the sliding glass door on their apartment. Mark was afraid he was going to hurt her I guess. I don't want this shit around my kid. If I would have known what was going on I would have called them too. Plus sorry newbies my neighborhood is quiet..don't need your bullshit and its good that people will put you in your place right away. I have kids, don't fucking need the bullshit. Plus even though I'm from the hood and am used to stuff like this. I haven't had to deal with it for 2 years now. I'm not about to start dealing with it again. It scares me and you never know what people like that are capable of. So fuck off.
Anyways I guess that is all for now....until next time folks.